As you see by the icon this is abotu love. Now my previous blog post was a bout heartbreak. Some of you may have taken it the wrong way. The guy Devin, has showed up in an awkward stage in my life and I just didin't know how to react. Now let me start from the first time i met him. I'm gonna go back to my 8th grade school year. This was a little over 2 years ago. I am now a sophmore in highschool. I used to hang out with a girl named Sarah...I met her through a mutual friend. Me and her hit it off right away. It wasn't long before I started to hang over at her house. At the thime she went with a guy named Gage(Devin's younger brother). The first time I went to Sarah's house we got bored and drew fake tattoos on each othe with sharpies....just for the hell of it! Sarah told me to write her Bf's name on her lower back so I wrote Gage. Then she told me to turn around. and before I knew she marked me with Devin's name. I didn't even know who the guy was at that time. All Sarah's firends who met me told me Devin was ugly and bad news. I thought the same of myself at the time. A week or so later Sarah gave me his number. Being bored one day I called him. Just my luck we hit it off. Me and him were through so many of the similar struggles it was too wierd. He said that he loved me first. and that he planned to ask me out when I saw him.(Which was to be the next weekend) He asked me out. and i said yes. This guy was 17 when i met him....and i had just turned 14. he turned 18 that summer. My mom knew about him....but not his age or how i met him. I loved this guy so much I dedicated my time to him. My friends on the ohter hand were not so supportive of our relationship. They wanted me to break up with him. All of them said " You can do so much better" (they referred to his appearence). I didn't care. Me and this guy had it all planned out. The night I turned 18 he would come to my door and propose to me. and we would go start our new life together. My mom found out his age from my now ex-friend Sarah's mom. My mom of course freaked out!I told my mom we broke up. But that was a lie.  i couldn't just let this guy go now. He wa there for me all through my pain. There was nights he stayed on the phonw with me all nite to keep me from slitting my wrists, or overdosing on pain pills and cold medicine,...or even both.He loved me and I loved him. But after a while he said for us to have a life together sfter i was 18 he would have to have get a job. So he did. And with him working so much there was barely time for us to talk. Ecspecially since my mom hated him....so i could only call him or see him when she was not around.This put major stress on our relationship. then came holidays like Christmas, New Years, and my Birthday....and his tough work schedule made it hard fo him to hang out. And he missed New Years and my Birthday party. That hurt me because I changed things around on these events so that I could secretly see him. even my friend's parents who hosted the New Year's Party were in on it! But after a while we talked less and less. And that led to ur breakup. Now it been over a year since I've seen Devin. and I just saw him this Saturday...He syas he still loves me and maybe evn more that before.  I'm going to try and describe how I felt when I saw him. I became super nervous and shook like a leaf. I started to stutter I couldn't even look him in the eye. He has the beautifullest big brown eyes in the whole entire world. My body grew warm and it made me uncomfortable. My stomach jumped and made me dizzy..Some people would call it butterflies. I still obviously feel that love for him as he does for me. The whole time I saw him I wanted us just to cuddle up somewhere and talk. and almost as if he read my mind he said he wish we could go do that. I just want to be held like him protectively like before. I wanted to put my head on his chest and listen to the staedy beat of his heart...like I used to. And for him to take my hand in his and kiss is gently like he used to.
Oh how I love him so. But still I feel stupid!

P.S.~ If you have any questions or want to know more about how me and him came to be together than please message me. I will get back to you as soon as possible.