Isn't it funny how when people ask what your problem is, you get defensive and say “I don’t have one”…or maybe if they pissed you off you say exactly what’s on your mind, or sum it up with a “you” or some other name?

Well I'm tired of hiding my problem, so I will just get it out there. I have a guy problem. Now don’t start assuming you know the end of the story just because you know the problem. I have three guys, who make one big problem!

So, without naming them I will call them by what I think they are:

The Lover is my ex. Yes, my ex is still in the picture. I still love him, even after all the pain which lead up to our demise…yet we have an unbreakable bond (or we’re both just stupid) and cannot really leave the other. I honestly believe he is my soulmate, or my true love.

The Working Man is my current man…ironically, yes, he does work….but that isn’t why I'm calling him the working man, I'm calling him that because, simply put, if we all have a place in the world his place is the workplace. Mine would be the home.

The Strange One by now, if anyone who knew me were on this site (please, if you know me don’t tell me!!) would know exactly who I am and exactly who these guys are… the names are just way too perfect. The strange one is the guy who still loves me like I love the lover… I don’t know why exactly. I have a strong bond with him too. He’s strange because of how he acts, but it’s just his playful personality.

Now, are you ready for the twist? This will rock your socks off. They all work in exactly the same building, for the same company, with the same position, and are literally cubicles apart!! Each one is friends with the other, but none of them know about my feelings for either of the others. The strange one and the lover are best friends, and they don’t want to talk about me because they know the other has feelings and they don’t want to destroy their friendship. Touchy huh? The working man just doesn’t share that sort of information with colleagues.

So.. I'm not officially with any of them, though all of them want to be officially with me.


And that is my problem.