Can't Compete
 
I don't have long,thick,cascading hair....so I can't compete
My skin is flawed with acne scars,open pores, oily complexion....so I can't compete
I'm not the fairest of them all, I'm dark skinned...so I can't compete
This body I posess seems bipolar,not sure if it wants to be skinny or thick...so I can't compete
My nose is wide,flat, & too big for my face. I can thank my mom for that...so I can't compete
I'm reserve, sometimes unbearably shy, afraid to smile...so I can't compete
Awkward,frazzled,& unstable...so I can't compete
I wear my heart on my sleeve sometimes to my detriment


You might be wondering,what the hell I'm i talking about?
I didn't want you to see me notice her picture on your phone when she called you.
So I tried to play it cool,make a joke to mask the sting
Even though we were sitting there having a decent time
It just confirmed my suspicions,you moved on to someone better & lighter according to what the society deems is beautiful.
Normally I wouldn't care,but how can I not when I still have love for you
But, you dropped  me like a bad habit
To see if you could do better.
So I can't be mad at you
I don't want you to settle, especially if that's how you view me
Because you have your mind made up
So I can't & won't compete with her or anyone else

I like your rawness and almost chaotic way of writing. It's like you pulled full thoughts from your head and put them in words perfectly.