In 2007 I wrote Pagan Boy, this is a return to it to reflect how love can remain through obstacles.

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Its been 7 years,
Since my Pagan Boy,
Departed.

Life moves on,
But by Allah,
I miss him still.

I count each minute,
Each day, each year,
But now I am married.

I love my husband,
Adore our kids,
I know this.

But they do not know,
the Pagan Boy has my heart,
And I cry each night inside.

In Jannah, I will see him,
Their we will be together,
Forever with my Pagan Boy.

 © 2014-2015, Bryan Runic Deakin and Bryan Deakin dot Com

So sad and so beautiful Runic. I cried just a little.   
I don't know who gave you a thumbs down, but I can guess why. 

I am not having nice thoughts about them. 

Thanks, I got negative one ages ago after argument with think it was bunny on another topic, Im not bothered

I am glad you like it, I always like when people like my poetry. Pagan Boy is based of me and a situation I was in with an Islamic girl many many years ago.

My newest poem can be found at:

http://www.bryandeakin.com/index2.php#poetry

AH! My bad then...I thought it was about another guy, and got the impression that you lost a boyfriend to death. So I thought someone gave you a "thumbs down" because they were upset because you were gay. 

No, I don't really care about what the plumbing is so long as two people love each other. And thanks for correcting my misunderstanding.

I may dress as a female on stage sometimes but im not interested in guys something about how it works just doesnt sit right for me.  I do not have anything against homosexuality and many of my friends are gay or lesbians, but nah def not for me I have 2 ex's on this site, one hasnt logged in for years so I think they would know well one of the def does, im sure the other one does as well.

Its funny as the girl its based on is married with kids. 

Cool! So your a female impersonator? Who do you impersonate?

not really I am more a guy who isnt scared to do comedy even if it means dressing as a female.  The character I play is a medium during a seance.